I am someone who has no second face. What I speak is what I mean and what I mean is what I do. And, there is no space for euphemisms or diplomacy on my tongue. Those in my belief are means to hide the truth which is equivalent to promoting a lie.
I am a man of candor, and to say what I don’t mean, or to sweeten my words and veil my harsh emotions for someone would be me acting pretentious. And, though that won’t matter much in the short run. However, over the tide of time, that would become my second nature.
And, like any sane mind, I would not want to be remembered as a pretentious soul when I depart from this world. Ergo, I wish to conduct my life as a person who would always be admired by his loved ones and the community as a person who was impeccable with his words and true to his heart.
That would be an honour which I want to earn for myself before the twilight of my life strikes. Because not many people in today’s world live by that principle. And, even among the ones who try to do so, very few do abide by it without any compromises.
And, thus, if I can continue to build my future the way I have been doing over the past year and a half, with absolute candor, it would be the greatest achievement of my life. I say so because, I would die the death of someone who will be among the rarest of the rare.
Because, I would be remembered as someone who managed to live true to his words all his life, without cheating or duping anyone, be it intentionally or unintentionally. It would be something for which I could finally lie on my deathbed with a proudly earned smile.
Also, this way I would not have just existed in this world by its norms. Rather, I would have lived in this world by norms it wishes it lived by. I know, to many readers my words may give a taste of narcissism in me. And, that would not be completely wrong either.
To some limit, pride and ego are all good. At least in my perspective, they are. They are bad, only when they exceed that limit and grow to the sizes that one can’t handle on their own. It is then that one’s pride or ego begins to show in their behaviour with others, which is never a good thing.
In fact, it’s a very bad thing. Anyway, the point is, I would want to live by my words and want my words to be the very precise representation of who I really am. Today, tomorrow and always. And, given I would be able to extrapolate and extend this tenet all through my life, that would be my greatest personal achievement. Bliss!